ThInGs YOu NevEr KnoW

wen at 14:01

25.10.03

自分で選んだ道であるからには、最後までやらなきゃならない。

wen at 23:50

Thursday
couldn't sleep last nite and Jac come cross my mind. Had a chat with her. About Kat. Her job. And other things as well. I told her that I will be back soon. Will see her at AA

wen at 23:49

Had been real lazy to update my blog. Let me see how many days I didn't do it.....Oh...3 days.. coz I'm tired to repeat my daily DUTY. Is all the same thing. Wake up. To school. Revise or coffee. kalo hse or home. Its just a rotate everyday.
But I have something different today. I went KTV with Kalo. Jane. Wilson and Sandra. We started from 3pm to 6pm. Free Flow of drink for 1000. As I didn't take my lunch I ordered a Hokkien Mee from the menu. There's a Malaysia restaurant nearby. I think they are somehow Linked. But they gave me Mee Goreng in the end. Actually Stir-Fried Udon. I guess they made a mistake. I used 2 hours to finish that plate of Udon. Too oily.
I suggested steamboat for dinner tonite since some many of us. Will be easier than cooking I guess. But Jane and Kalo aredi had enough of it coz we had something similar 3 times this week. lol. I wouldn't mind having it everyday actually. But they do. And Jane told me that she's not going to eat any steamboat next week.hahaha. anyway I will be here until next Thursday only. I will request it the week after.lol.
I felt that Jan is kinda Strange. I sent him mail that he didn't reply but suddenly called up to tell me that he put some vcd at my house. And he have to return it on Monday. I really dunno whats on his mind. Funny Guy.
oh ya. Mum called while i'm k-ing. Told me that zac is there. And as usual.. Complains. abt Weihao & Co. Saying that the mum is too much. Say wanna take care at first but change her mind telling that the son nv shower nv work nv give her money this and that. phew.... Sick of it really. I just cant be bothered. Called up the sis to find out what is going on but she's working. So I think I will call her again tomorrow. Their house phone was being cut off coz they didn't pay. Really dunno what's wrong with their family. Sigh.
online with Teri and Lian. Oh..She finally update her blog. LOL. Everyone is getting lazy

wen at 23:42

23.10.03

fking hell. i wrote alot just now but its not updated. Asshole....

wen at 22:31

22.10.03

Its not a public holiday in Japan. But No school for today and tomorrow. Was drinking wine alone at home last nite and chatting with teri. Feel drunk as usual and I went to bed. Kalo Jio me to go shopping today. I intend to buy a boots actually. But just cant make up my mind which one to buy coz there's a lot a lot. And it's all not so bad. So eventually I didn't buy any of it. We hv a Chinese food feast Today, Had lunch at Takashimaya."Xiao Long Bao". Is not as good as what we've expected. But I heard that this Shop is very Famous In Taiwan. It's Origin. Have to queue for very long time. But it doesn't taste that fantastic actually. And we had Guangdong Food for dinner. Taste good but not that cheap. Oh I miss laksa..beehoon soto...hokkien mee....oh I'm getting hungry..

wen at 22:48

21.10.03

Just finish with my project. But its not perfect. One piece went missing, I found out when I'm almost done last nite staying up till 4 plus so fking angry. U know when u are really putting all your hearts doing something but finally it doesn't come out to be the way that u want it to be.....Or what it supposed to be. FUCK!!!!

really dun wan dun want to wake up today. But in order to maintain my attendance till I'm back to SIN. I have to sacrifice. Was still feeling ok at the beginning but slowly I'm feeling damn sleepy...And tired..
finally I make it the end of the classes for today. But I didn't wanna go home coz I want to do the Listening Test for year 1995.

the results are below.
文法。読解　126.5/200
文字。語彙　80/100
聴解　　　　84.6/100

it is higher than the last time i took. Should I feel happy over it?? But I still think that I cant do better!

wen at 22:45

19.10.03

stayed over at Jane plc las nite. Was drinking my Whisky with Oolong Tea. Kinda of funny combination. Doesn't taste Good at all. But all i want is the Feel. Since it's weekend. It doesn't matter to me much. I'm trying not to drink in the weekdays. Still trying hard actually.

Was thinking what to eat for lunch and the idea of the Malaysia Yummy located at Shin Okubo cross my mind. They have delivery service with no extra charges. We ordered Roasted Duck Noodle, Wanton Noodle, Kailan, Pork Ribs, ANd a salted veg. Tofu Soup. Combined with FM 933 and it's the Best lunch I ever Had In Japan. IT's really great. Can't think of any better word to described. It's just SHIOK.
Nothing much to do in the afternoon after Lunch. Just went to Seiyu to get our Dinner material and i bought a fan. Which comes out with Hot air instead of cold air. I think i really need that. Was thinking if if i should get myself an extra Blanket too.
Back to Jane house and she start to do all the preparation i didn't help much since she say that she can handle. So all along i was just surfing the net with no idea what i wanna do. Oh. i Bought myself an Adidas from the net Last nite.

wen at 19:15

18.10.03

Like what i always did on Friday, was drunk again las nite after those long island and Red wine.. We went to Park again after HUB. Its rather cold last nite. But we sat at the shelter. Got no idea why they have this shelter there suddenly. It looks like they are having some fair over there.
Went to Shinjuku to collect my Student pass and pay for my insurance. and bought a leather cover for my pda too. Nothing much for me to Blog today. choas..

wen at 20:25

17.10.03

Log off just now and plan to rest early for tonite coz I'm rally sleepy... Rolling around but just cant rest my mind.
いつも何か思い出す、考えたくなくても、やはり寝られない。
I have to rush for my project.. gotta finish it before I go back..

wen at 00:25

16.10.03

had my dinner "Soy Meat" again, coz there's still left over. Wanted to go to Kalo hse at first to take the remaining of the toys but since she is not feeling well, so i think i will take it from her tomorrow instead. Called dad in the afternoon. Coz i wanna tell him hat i feel like going back for a short break since i have a long weekend end of the month. And since teri and others are going back too. Wanted to mit up with them so much, especially my little boy... Dad didn't agree to it at first. Coz he said a waste of money to go back just for a few days. i agree to what he said, but i really really wanna go back so much. So me phsyco him all the way till i said he pay half for me.. and of coz he said YES to my request!! happily wanted to teri about it but that stupid woman nv pick up my call. NVM. hv to get the ticket tomolo. and start preparing my luggage, hv to bring all my summer clothes back....Sob..Sob... Goodbye... My Summer..

wen at 19:51

15.10.03

Just finish taking my shower and blow my hair. Cant let it dry by itself coz its late.
Sandra cooked a big pot of SOY MEAT today.i mention to her that I miss ur food so much yesterday and she cooked it last nite. She is so sweet. Was supposed to finish it up in the afternoon. Coz we expected the others to join us for lunch at my house. Like what they used to do. But ended up Only me, Sandra and Wilson. Is impossible for just the three of us finishing up that BIG pot of meat. So I decided to bring some of the remaining to Kalo house for dinner tonight since I have to go there and take the toys from her. I have to send it to Angel as soon as possible.
backed home and I started to do the packing. Opened up the box that Wilson passed to me few days ago. And it's really big. But I cant just send it like that. coz if the size is too big then the post office here wont except. So I have to reshape it to the desire size which can fit the toys. It's so tiring to be a logistic. And cutting the box makes me sweat. Coz I have to do it very carefully. In order not to make it out of shape. Finally I'm able to make a box which fits all the toys even the POOH. (which is supposed to be send in another box.) and I'm so clever to have use the box which previously contained POOH to put my FIRE CANS. Of coz I have to do something about it again. I guess after finishing everything I'm will be losing 1kg.

wen at 23:17

14.10.03

Was feeling damn tired today. Didn't get to sleep well last nite. Went to bed around 12am. Was still awake till 1plus. And I woke at 2 , 4, 6, 7!!! Fk it. I wanna get 15. I didn't had a good sleep for a long time.... And I really need it.

Didn't wan to attend the first lesson at the beginning but is Matsumoto Sensei's class. Dun wanna skip her lesson. Nothing much for today except that it turns cold suddenly. It was warm yesterday even if its raining. The weather recently is unpredictable. Hate it. Like what he had said.

Talked to Kenny on messenger and he show me sayuri thru webcam. And me talk to Sato too. Saw his kuku face. And he saw me too....I just did my facial.... Paisei...

急に寒くなっちゃう。やっだな。

wen at 22:01

13.10.03

so what are you hoping for nowadays? hoping for him to come back? or hoping to find someone else?

Is a good question by someone indeed. i wish that one day i can write down my ans here.

i hope

wen at 22:01

Its 12. I decided to wake up while the others still sleeping. I think the noise that I've made disturb them from their dreams. Happily waking them up coz I need to do some cleaning. And get some food. Ming suggested to COOK. So the 3 of us with 2 umbrella went to supermarket to get the material. Didn't know that Ming can cook well. He really can. And it taste good honestly. Jan called after our big feast. We had 5 dishes for the 3 of us. Its a pity that Jan couldn't join us. Oh yah.. He came over to my place after his 見学 at the music school. He wanna pass ken his new song. Ken wanna do my nails again. He said he will come over everyday to train it as he is having a test in Nov.and he's really weak at it. it looks bad actually. Jan went home to wash his clothes while Ming went out to mit up with his fren. I was thinking of going to Ben's to study and have my Latte. But I'm still very tired. Wonder if I can sleep earlier tonite.

wen at 18:23

Sunday

Woke up around 10am coz I have to reach Ikebukuro station and mit up with the others at 11am. Rock Climbing. But Ah Ming was late by 10mins. Had our lunch somewhere before going there. Tonkatsu. Oishii.
Didn't climb many times . 3 times I think. Was so exhausted. This is a very tiring game. And u need to use your brain too. Ended around 3plus. I went home coz Ken wanna come over to my house to play with my finger. I mean to practice his nail arts. He's studying Beauty now. Lying on the bed when the door bell ring. Tong Yan opened the door for him. Coz I'm really too lazy to move. And I have to get my butts out of the bed in order for him to practice. Was discussing what to eat for dinner after Jan arrived to my house. At first steak house..But Full house then KFC. But I didn't wan that. And the finally decision is that the guys get their chicken and I get my Thai Fried rice and back to my house for dinner. I just love Thai food. Yummy..

Ming joined us too after his work and someone suggested going down to Hub for drink. And of coz. Its a good idea..To me. Having my long island.and talking to Ming sometimes.and they started to play game..U Know there's so many kind of game in HKG. Just confusing me. Tong Yan went back around 11pm with his Girl Friend coz they have to rush for the last train back home. but the others plan to stay over at my place since I'm near. I have no comment on that. Well. I just cant be bothered and I think it will be fine for me. coz I'm too fking sleepy that I fall asleep in the pub. I think I reach home about 2am. And I went straight to bed after washing my face. While they continue with their Man's Talk. And I just knock out....

wen at 18:08

12.10.03

1. Full name: i think u know
2. Nick: ballie...blur queen...
3. Height: 163....and i wish i can grow more
4. First Cry: 240521981
5. Birthplace: KK Hospital.
6. Where do you live now?: somewhere in the universe
7. Time of birth?: not sure..
8. Sibling(s): sister and brother
9. What do you look like: ball?
10. Favourite animal(s): the one and only Missy. i love mah dog.

11. Favourite TV shows: non.....i dun alays keep my eyes on that
12. Favourite Actor/Actress: who can it be..
13. Favourite movie(s): mm...none..coz i always cant remember the show even if i've watched
14. Do you drink wine/liquor/beer?: hey. of coz..thats my fren ok
15. Sch: i wish i'm not
16. Do You Believe In Horoscopes?: sometimes
17. Who do you think of when reading this quote..."If for every time I thought about you I'd get a flower, I could walk forever in my garden.": well. iw ish i can die there
18. Buddies :who u refering to?
19. Favorite candy: i nv like sweets

20. Hobbies: spending money. getting drunk...etc
21. Do you believe that eyes are the window to the soul?:i wish i'm blind
22. Do you have a personal phone line? duh. the mobile!
23. How many e-mail addresses do you have?: 2. i hate having so much. hotmail and yahoo.
24. Special thing about you: my big round face...and a mole on my..
25. Do you get your news from newspapers or TV?: both.
26. Any tattoos and where of what?:on my neck and back.maybefinger and breast..y u wanna know...
27. Piercing and where?: ears. navel
28. What do you sleep in?: undies..
29. What do you think of chain letters?: fuck themm. nothin else beta to do isit?
30. Have You Any Fears?: to be alone

31. Fav topic you talk to your friend: everything and anything.
32. Words and phrases you over-use:huh? i dunno.maybe..
33. Non-sport activity you enjoy: sleeping, and not doing anything
34. Dream car: cant name it
35. What type of music do you listen to?: anything and everything.
36. Scariest thing you've ever done: might scare u away
37. Favorite thing to do in winter: can't really remember winter but i'm gonna try one
38. What's your bedtime: i wish it was 10pm. but turns out to be 2plus
39. Favorite Flower(s): white roses and lavender.
40. Favorite thing to wear in the future: whatt? in the future?

41. Favorite subject in school?: none
42. Favorite colour: anything that goes
43. Coke or Pepsi: water
44. Favourite people to talk to online: zac??
45. Most wanted thing to do: turn back tiime.
46. Who is The Hottest Guy or Girl in the world?: zac chiu and ong kim choo..thats my mum...hahaha
47. Where do you work?: can i choose?
48. When You Die, Do You Wanna Be Buried or Burned Into Ashes: doesn't matter that much
49. Do you have good grammer: i hope so. =)
50. Do you smoke?: i wish i don't

51. Favourite Vacation Spot: mars
52. If you have a chance, which time of your life would you like to go back?: i want to be a baby forever. in a way, u'll be happy forever. nothing EVER bothers me!!
53. Pets: siao qiang?
54.. Do you want to have kids?: i had
56. What's the neatest thing about your room?: my saliva
57. What fav.Cd u own?: JAy
58. Which is the bad time of the year for you?: every single minute here
59. Are you a good friend?: i hope so.
60. Do you get along with your parents? 99%

61. Favourite Fast Food: long john..mac..anything will do actually
62. What sports do you like?: Shopping
63. What is your favourite salad dressing?: thousand island
64. Are you going to get married?: i'm getting a divorce darling
65. Do you believe in aliens?: er...............
66. If you had the chance to professionally do something, what would you do?: be a phscologist
67. Things you obsess over:will be along list
68. Favourite Day of the Week: none
69. A teacher you hate: FuRuya
70. Favourite Disney Movie: Monsters Inc coz i like MoMo
71. What is your favourite season?: Summer of coz
72. What toppings do you like on a pizza? whatever
73. Do you like your school food?:they not selling any
74. If you could live anywhere, where would you like to live?:somewhere by the beach
75. Favourite thing to do on weekends: doing something out of nothing at all
76. Have you ever been convicted of a crime: er.........
77. If you got a chance to see someone you barely ever see, who would it be?: whoelse
78. Favourite Beverage: sky Juice
79. Favourite Number(s): 3
80. Favourite Ice Cream flavour(s): mm....not fancy about it

81. What kind of guys/girls are you attracted to?:rich ones!!
82. Who is your favourite author?: whats that? i dun read
83. Who was your first kiss?: a woman..
84. What's your most embarrassing moment?:doing ur business in the toilet but u r short of the tools to clean it
85. Do you eat breakfast first than brush your teeth or eat first? whichever
86. Favourite cereal(s): never like it
87. Favourite time of day: while i'm sleeping
88. Can a guy and girl be "best friends?": IT'S NOT A CRIME U NOE.
89. Do you ask the girl/guy out or wait for them to come to ask you?: it dependss..
90. Do you mind paying for a date?: why nott?

91. Who is the funniest person you know?: GOD...amen
92. What's the most important thing in someone's personality?: eh..
93. Pager or hand phone: mobile
94. Who's more important, family or friends?: Family for sure
95. Do you get stressed out easily?: every single minute
96. What was the best gift you ever received?: a diamong cros pendent
97. Name a person(s) that really gets on ur nerves: myself???
98. Did You Lie In This Survey?: nope.
99. What u wish the person u like to do to u?: give me money
100. Anything you wanna say?: i need to sleep

wen at 01:49

Watched the VCD that Jan lend to me. Crime And Punishment. Have no idea at all what that show is trying to say. Maybe my understanding is not enough. ICQ to Kalo and asked her if they wanna have steamboat for dinner tonite since we're having a miting later. And I really feel like eating that. So I get prepared and went to Seiyu to get the meat and vegie. Shit. Cant find my prawns. But eventually I got a pack of seafood platter that has 3 prawns in it. Better than nothing.

We started around 6plus. And meanwhile. Jan called Jane to check the time for the meeting. So we just ask him to join us for dinner. But I think Kalo is not very happy coz she's a little mad with Jan and Wilson for not inviting her for the drinking conversation class Last nite. I did Jio her actually. But she said that she don't wanna go... So the four of Us were having our feast and I did called Jan to get us some meatball which is selling at his area. We were used to having that while we eat steamboat. Is a very good coordination. And cabbage..Beef..Radish..Golden mushroom..prawns of coz.

Mum called too. And finally that little Boy s willing to talk to me after so long. I can't remember exactly how long since I last talk to him. But it feels like years to me. Think he's doing well with all his cartoon. Mum did told me something abut Weihao's family too. All in a mess. I dun wanna bother about them. As long as they dun step on my tails.

Jan jio to go rock climbing tomolo. miting up at 11am. And DUn be late!! Wonder if I will be able to make it coz I dunno what time I will go to bed tonite.... shld I watch The Sex And the City.......

wen at 00:34

11.10.03

Friday

8.30am Time to wake up. Get myself ready and head for school. The lesson are boring as usual. Had spaghetti for lunch and passby BigBox and I bought a CD Enya. Back home for a shower after school and Winnie wanna take her bag which she left it here weeks ago. She found her house but I got no idea where it is. Anyway. Heard that is at a reasonable price and less than 30min from school.
We plan to go Hub for a drink and Lydia called me around 5pm. So she came down to basement and with the other and we went there. At the door. It says that a private party will start at 7.15pm. That means we have to move our ass out of it around 7pm. Of coz there's Korean in the group. That's the main purpose. Without them we won't be able to train our Japanese. All along we were toking about all sorts of nonsense even love hotel. We moved to a place near by my house. First time there and I think I won't step in there for a second time. The service is not good. And is expensive. Oh. Onotsuka sensei join us too. After her work. Around 8 plus 9. Is the first time for me to drink with her. Had a small argument with Jan over the culture thing. haha... The bill is ￥40000 for tonite. 8 person. With dunno how many drinks. And a few dishes.

With Jan, Zhiying and a Korean gal. Can't remember her name. We move to a park to continue our drinking session. I bought a bottle of wine. But actually I'm very high after a few long island. I can't remember what conversation we had. And I dun remember what time I went home. The only thing I know is I went straight to bed after washing my face.

Checking my handphone Just now. Koch did call me last nite. And Ah Ming called me too. But I can't remember what I've said.

No idea what i wanna do today...maybe vcd..later go Ben's again....maybe..

wen at 12:42

9.10.03

Wednesday 08oct

Missed one lesson again this morning..Really dun feel like waking up coz I didn't have enough rest these few days....Not due to any cheonging or drinking.. Actually I didn't drink for 2 days.. But I really need to sleep..I mean a very good rest..

Can't wait to mit him so I rushed home and took a shower and went to this Haneda Airport. Couldn't find my out to his exit coz I forgot his airline. But finally I get to see a familiar figure sitting at the bench talking on the phone. So I sat beside him. How I wish I can hv those u know..In the movie...Running to each other and u say out his/her name, hug them and kiss them....hahaha....That will be lovely....opps....Sorry....Back to the topic...He said that he is very tired due to those trips and entertainment, he want to rest awhile and take a shower first so we took a train back to my house. On the train we didn't had much conversation. But he did ask me about my studies. So I showed him my notes, and he go through them telling me some of my mistakes..

He asked me where I want to go or what I want to do. So I joked with him and said that the place that he ever mention while we were talking on the phone months back...And for god's sake...He still remember about his promise..Actually I thought he has already forgotten about this. But of coz we didn't go to that place named ODAEBA coz the traveling is more than an hour..Back to my house, he told me ..(hint hint) that he feel like eating Onigiri.. .Ume..Chicken..Pudding...blahblah so I grab my bag and went down to Lawson to get our dinner for tonite. I don't mind staying at home for the night as long as he's with me... am....hmm..

We had our dinner accompany with his newspaper and my computer... After that we were sitting side by side watching TV..Plus some talks. I was complaining about his behavior. And he is trying to explain y he didn't call me due to his work...Didn't bring his handphone...Was drinking with his guest.....blahblah anyway.. I know...That things are different from the way it used to be..Is just I..nvm..
I guess it has been his habit everytime he sees me....He want me to massage for him...His palms..Arms...Neck..Head...Shoulder...hehe...Dun be naughty.... She called..Saying that Takuma got an injury. He throw the ball against the wall and it hit on his eyes...Poor baby...It really hurts.. I suggest that to bring him to the hospital immediately but he just dun listen...He said she will do it tomolo...So...

we went down to Lawson again coz he said he wanna buy magazine..It was abit cold out there but he is just wearing my sweater and shorts...and he look extreamly Unly...like those ....crazy pervert.. I wanted to get some wine so I ask him to go home first without me. But of coz...Deep inside I wish that he will say "let me go with u" but to what I've expected he didn't..Walking alone on the streets makes me feel cold too

I asked him if he went dinner with any gal after I go so far, kinda happy that he told me that he DID. I mean...Who would believe that he won't..At least I don't... Anyway...There's two gals so far and he went 3 times? If he's honest enough. Once in Japan. Think it's in august. Twice in Singapore...And u know..My dear...It's Joyce...Yah....sis's fren...nvm...All along I know that whenever he goes to Rakuen. She's always the gal sitting beside him...coz he did told me about that...Though he didn't request anyone....But they always put her to him... And he said that slowly they become frens..Mm...What can I say? I know Joyce, though not very well but did went out together a few times..Got a boyfren from what I know... (he just called, saying that he's now on his way home in a taxi, not driving..Was shock coz I thought he just arrive sin, but he told me that he But too bad.... i overheard..i didn't mean to...but the stupid woman just talk too loud, asking him where he is, when he come back, i know he is very careful in replying, and the most is she ask him to call her after he reach sin. oh god, at this time, i can feel my fire is burning, fk it!!! i ask him if there's anything that he wanna tell me but sadly he said no. He knows that something is wrong. and he's trying to make me laugh or make me talk. and u know. i feel like giving him a slap on his face. and finally he told me that SHE is a girl from Madokka but he refuse to tell me her name. He nv go out with her before. that's all.

Thursday

That stupid alarm clock... 8.15am..8.20am..8.25am.....every 5 mins, it just wakes me up from my sweet dream in his arms..Hate it... Actually we were supposed to step out at 8.45 in order to rch for the skyliner that departs at 9.25. He flies at 12noon. Unwillingly we get ourselves dressed up and rushed to the station. I insisted that I wan to send him off till the airport even if he doesn't agree with me to do so as I will miss my lesson.. I know it...But I just wanna spent a little more time....Just abit more to be with him...Maybe I'm silly..Think it is more suitable to say that I'm stupid....Yah... We still managed to catch the train.and able to reach there by the time of 10.20am.he said he will call me everyday...Hope so.. Seeing him off makes my eyes flood....He ask me to study hard...And take care of my health, he said that is getting cold now..And a lot of people will get flu. I will try... Kissing me goodbye and he ask me to go.....So I turn off ....

While waiting for the train, I sat at Starbucks drinking my Latte and having my lunch..A sandwich.. Taste bad... I told him to call me before he gets off and he called...But the line went off coz the train pass off the tunnel twice. Stupid network. And there goes my darling.. We spent 17 hours and 30 mins together...Will we be able to meet again 2mths later?

back to BABA around 12.0pm and kalo called, asking me where i am, and said that I've missed my lesson again, she's afraid that I won't have enough bullets, haha... Went to Bldy's to mit up with her even I thought of going home for a shower before the afternoon lesson. Had a bad headache while I'm doing my revision. Jan ask me if I want to go to Jane house but I dun think I'm in a good condition so I choose to go home and take my pills, and actually....I DID plan to rest early tonite...But the time now...

wen at 22:00

8.10.03

nitey...my dear.....

wen at 23:38

i love u.............but too bad....somehow rather.....we cant make it the way that i want it to be.....we will never know..........

wen at 23:29

Cheers. to my dearest.......best for your future......and mine too............

wen at 22:53

gotta go and pick him up... wonder how it wil be....sigh.....

wen at 14:56

7.10.03

That's My Pick

Peach
Like a peach, you enjoy the juice of life it all its lush ripeness! You are the friendly sort, and are quite frank and outspoken, which adds to your charm. You are quick to forgive and forget; and value your friendships highly. You have an independent and ambitious streak in you, that makes you a real go-getter. You are the ideal lover, fiery and passionate but sincere and faithful in love. You don't however like to display all that passion in public.

wen at 20:22

6.10.03

heartaches....i thought....but....no...
laying on the bed for almost an hour but i just cant sleep...but i'm very tired...real tired....damnit...........

wen at 21:44

5.10.03

A mother's tear is very precious. Keep it in your heart so that you will love your child even more
Rick told me that.... thanks him so much for saying this to me....

wen at 23:59

You're the smirk,a frown-smile hybrid that's a
little bit cocky and usually associated with
evil or arrogant,but attractive people.You
probably just don't give a damn,but it's
everyone else's fault if you don't because
you're too awesome to have any real faults.

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wen at 22:08

Not that Sweet. You're probably not used to
people.You don't really like them that much. No
need for them,right?

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wen at 21:57

-Perfect- You're the perfect girlfriend. Which
means you're rare or that you cheated :P You're
the kind of chick that can hang out with your
boyfriend's friends and be silly. You don't
care about presents or about going to fancy
placed. Hell, just hang out. You're just happy
being around your boyfriend.

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wen at 21:29

your asshole.

wen at 21:28

I think I got some problem with myself. Not knowing what I want and what I need. I'm not happy. I wanna cry...Can I?

Something wrong with my phonecard. I can't call... I didn't say Happy Birthday... Sorry....

wen at 20:59

what the hell am I doing? Am I too stupid to know by this time what it should be done by now? I was told that I should not trust someone too easily and I actually dun feel that I do eventhough soemtimes i....... I'm just appreciating those who treat me well eventhough they felt that I maybe stupid in somehow someway. Anyway I know that they say it because they dun wan me to be in the same mistake again..

wen at 15:02

I can taste of his toothpaste....................

wen at 00:17

called him just now. the feeling that i have now it's different from the way that i used to have. and i really don't know what i wan to say now. coz i dun really know what i want...............or what i can request........... i just want to know if you still love me by now.....or do i still love you...............

wen at 00:03

4.10.03

Went to GINZA with angel today around 3 plus coz she wanna to go LV to get the design that she want. Anyway she bought a bag that she want but she cant get it in Singapore. Endo was there too. We went to a tepanyaki near BABA for dinner tonite. i let them hv my place to stay since I can stay at kalo hse for tonite. guess i am drunk again..........coz i dunno what the hell i'm talking about....

wen at 23:57

3.10.03

it's late. managed to open up my eyes around 3plus. and i'm still feeling kinda sleepy. angel have no plan to go out so we decided to stay home to Nuar. watch a movie named Vanilla Sky casting Tom Cruise. Got no idea what ths show is about. the guy i met last nite call. ask if he can call or ask me out sometimes. mm......i'm not interested since i'm really lazy. and my exam is coming soon. but of coz i didn't say it out. out for dinner and actually we plan to go Thai near my hse. but out of my expectation. Full house. so we went to Bldy's. nothing much to blog for today. chaos

wen at 23:06

Thursday

Woke up around 2plus today. Angel was still asleep. Guess she is really tired. Nuar at home for the whole afternoon and finally got ourselves ready to go out by the time of 6pm. Went down to Takashimaya Shinjuku coz Angel wanna buy something. But she didn't get herself anything in the end.

Called up Jane to ask her where's the place that she had TepanYaki the last time. Coz i plan to bring Angel there since she wanted to try. But i heard the price there is rather high. On board the taxi and we are in front of MitsuiSumitomo Blg. The restaurant is located at the 50th floor. but i think we might got the wrong one coz it seems a little different from what Jane told me. Anyway the bill is about ï¿¥14000. cheaper than what i thought. The food there is nothing fantastic but the view out there. is the first time for me to see the nite view of Shinjuku.

Got this funny idea of going to a Host Club at æŒèˆžä¼Žç”º after dinner. Actually is a no good thing for two gals to walk along that area in such a late hour But since we've got nothing better to do and it seems interesting to us. I've been working in the nite, entertaining but have never been entertained. So searching here and there went up to the wrong place which is a pub with a few ants that plays HipHop. Not my Cup of tea. Had two shots of tequila and we got out of that place and continue with our plan. bumped into this æ„›ã‚°ãƒ©ãƒ–. it caught my attention becoz of the named. It's just so Biang.......æ„›! Check the price and it's about ï¿¥5000 per pax including drinks for 2 hours. it seems acceptable anyway since i dun plan to stay long.

There's 3 men looks rather old at the reception counter. gave me a shock and thinking that it cant be them. one of the guy lead us to the seat and here comes another 3 men. Can't remember their names since It's not necessary for me to do so. And i believe that i'm not able to. They are a bit far from Handsome. But they got a little style. Think its because of their dressing. And I notice this guy seating at the other table keep looking this way. he's not handsome neither. and he came over after a while seating with us. The style of this club is something similar to Sayuri. some of the guys keep changing and i can see the seat beside Angel change quite often. She's enjoying i think. Can't remember how many guys we've met. Coz i was high after drinking countless glasses. Keep toking nonsence which i cant remember. and listening to those japanese makes me more blur. My ears are tired . and i'm fking sleepy. but in the end we stayed for more than 2 hours. Didn't wear my watch and i'm at a lost of time. Angel told me that we were home around 7plus.Cant believe it. I went straight to bed without washing off my makeup. I wish to do so but i just cant open my eyes. I need to sleep.

wen at 22:28

2.10.03

Is everyone covering their real feelings but showing others the other side of their personality? Don't they find it guilty or is that the only thing they can do in order to survive in this world? There's no rite or wrong in the world that I believe in. But I do respect a certain strange way in this abnormal world. Which u can't loose a chance that u are given with........

wen at 03:16

So happy that a old Japanese lady asking me the way to get to oedo station while I was waiting for angel at the Shinjuku JR station. And the best part of it is that I manage to tell her using the best Jap that I've learn. And lead her the way to it.

wen at 02:49

Went to Shinjuku in the late afternoon with Angel coz she wanna shop. But in the end, i'm the one who bought more things than her. This time, me got the license to kill, coz I'm preparing for my winter as I dun wanna freeze to death. And the actual reason is that I just cant resist the stuff from Mango.

didn't join Angel for dinner coz she's miting her jap fren at Ropongi. so I choose to go home, coz I dun wanna social. I'm kinda closed up recently. Without any reason. Anyway..............

Back home, treat myself for a Maggie and Jane called, they just back from Ueno to get the toys thing for angel. u see, she's our biggest retail seller. Without her, I dunno when we can treat ourself for a cup of coffee under Oretsyle at Ben's. My fav coffee plus relaxing place to go though.

Hayashi called ard 10plus to inform me d place to MIT up with the others as we r going to have our farewell party for Yen, she's leaving on Friday to kyushu. She's going there to study, and preparing to get married with her Jap Boy. Whom stay there.

Angel is not well, she's drunk. She told me that she had 3 bottles of Sake while she's having her dinner. And then she drank again when we were playing the dog game. As usual, hayashi is the one who own the dog. Wherever he goes, the dog is always with him....Faithfully..............

wen at 02:44

1.10.03

Suppose to pick angel and Gina up from narita airport today,and the Skyliner is at 2.05pm. I have to leave my house around 1.30pm. was watching the vcd that Jane lend to me. The title to be translate is "The Man And Woman's Dictionary" is a pretty nice show. I feel.
waited at the airport for 1 and a half hour. The flight landed at 2.46pm. I was so worried that they are having a problem with the emigration upon the arrival. coz Japan is having kinda srange rules....
managed to MIT up with angel alone without any sight from Gina. That asshole. Angel looks real bad the moment I saw her. And I was trying to find Gina's shadow. But unfortunately, Gina missed her flight due to overslept. Hey man. Isn't it too bad / worst to be true? How can a person missed her flight ? I pity angel for all her worries. And thinking that there might be something bad happening to her...blabla..............Anyway, I'm still hoping that Gina can make it here tomolo. Though it's a bit MIP.
Angel has been complaining about her bad day...This is not the way and that is not rite..And I'm just the listener like what I used to be. I can understand her Suayness. But that's nothing I can help out with. Feeling so sorry.
Back to my hse and angel say that she miss Ben's latte or mocha. So we just drop by to the cafe and hv our coffee before we mit Jane up for dinner, angel wanted to eat sashimi, but it's all full house, and finally we ended up at a steak house .And later we went to Jane's house as usual and this time we are on the business talk again.
is man the most thing a woman needs and is woman the best thing a man wants to have?
its kinda complicated...I'm not sure about what I want.....Even if I wish to know....
Can a woman survive without a man? I'll make the ans No. No matter how strong a woman is, they still need a shoulder to cry on...That's How I feel eventhough I hope that I'm wrong.

wen at 01:36

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